Hi everyone. It’s been a while, right? Well, sometimes life throws curve balls at you and all you can do is go with it and try not to panic. It feels weird writing about it here and frankly I don’t really want to, but not mentioning it at all feels wrong, especially considering the impact it has on my life and my loved ones. About three weeks ago my “stepfather” passed away (I’m using air quotes because I strongly dislike the word, I guess I watched Cinderella too many times when I was younger). It did not come as a “surprise”, considering he had been sick for a little while, but it was a terrible shock nonetheless. He was a great loving man and made my mom very very happy.
I don’t really feel comfortable sharing more about it. Somehow everything I type doesn’t do any justice to the pain and confusion that we are all experiencing right now. That, and the fact that I can’t type a single sentence about this all without bawling my eyes out, makes me think I’d rather do this whole grieving thing in private. I hope you understand.
A Trabant, complete with GDR sticker on the back window, couldn’t resist taking a picture ➳ A drawing I did for my sister. ➳ Beautiful yellow tulips. Can’t get over how beautiful (and standing up straight!) they are. ➳ Boyfriend while going for an ice-cream at Koningsdag.
Strangely enough, life goes on and there is nothing you can do about it (although it does feel like EVERYTHING has changed). I try to distract myself with taking pictures, painting and listening to A LOT of Fleetwood Mac (of course I also spend a lot of time with my mom… don’t worry, we are taking good care of her).
In one of my last posts I mentioned my thesis and how that was going to keep me from all the fun stuff the upcoming months. Well, with everything that has happened, I have decided to postpone my thesis writing and instead focus on getting my last regular 6 ECST of my masters this semester. The thesis will have to wait, I’ll probably get to that in september/october.
The sun was going down and somehow it painted our entire living room pink ➳ Last week I was a “model” for one of Malou’s make-up classes. I was supposed to be there a week earlier, but had to cancel and this way it luckily all worked out ➳ Watching falling stars by the sea. There was supposed to be a meteor shower and yes, we did see a few falling stars! ➳ On the 14th of april I turned 24 and although it was probably the saddest birthday ever, I did get a very great gift from my boyfriend. A Fleetwood Mac album on vinyl that was still missing from our collection :)
Here’s a song I’ve been obsessed with (well, besides the songs by Fleetwood Mac of course… but I probably already talk too much about them already, hehe)
Lana Del Rey – West Coast
Give it a few times, you’ll probably have to warm up to it, at least I had to (and no, you’re not crazy, the video is repeating itself).
Hope you’re all well xx