Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above all sizzling like your stare
Honey I’m on fire I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore
People are joking about the amount of instagram that is probably being used in Lana del Rey’s musicvideos, but I can’t help it: I LOVE THEM. Summertime Sadness gives me chills. All those beautiful shots where it seems like she’s floating… Also a big plus is the fact that one of her best friends (and very cute, may I add) actress Jamie King is in this video (you might recognize her from Hart of Dixie). Must be fun, riding in a car with them on those warm and lonely summer nights. Without the jumping off of bridges and all the tears of course.
My favorite moments? 0:48 (jumping between the trees), 2:55 (just because), 3:25 (floating floating!), 4:02 (she’s so pretty!) & 4:22 (love the end, it’s so eerie!). Also the scenes with Jamie on the bridge are SO beautiful. And the very short shots in between, the cute moment where Lana makes a funny face, Lana and the dog &… well, ok, I’ll admit it: I’m in love with every minute of it.
* (pictures used above are screenshots from the musicvideo)
Ever since I came home from my trip abroad, I’ve been really enjoying making our apartment even more cozy than it already was. I don’t see myself as a very materialistic person, but I must confess… I love pretty stuff. My definition of “pretty” doesn’t mean it has to be shiny or new or expensive though. Secondhand shops and flea markets are kind of my guilty pleasure. I can’t leave those things without buying some more cute plates and cups, or vases or… well, you name it, I fall for it. Don’t get me wrong: I’m the first person to declare her love for Ikea (although I’m still a bit sad about the fact that they discontinued their cappuccino cake), but in my opinion there exists something as TOO MUCH IKEA. We do have a lot of stuff from there, but I like mixing them with secondhand stuff. In my opinion it really adds character to a home and it can be so much fun to find something you love (for a few bucks!) and make it even more pretty with a lick of paint.
Above all, I love a home which can tell you a lot about the people who are living in it, for it to say something about their personalities. Our home is still a work in progress, but I think that is the fun part about having a place of your own: it’s never finished and you can keep changing it whenever you want. Well, with the consent of your housemate/boyfriend of course (mine veto’d about pink walls – luckily that’s not really my thing either).
A few weeks ago (during one of my many “I really need to study, but let’s just not” episodes – a rather strong one this time actually) I watched the film Ghost World. I found out about Ghost World while looking for pictures of Scarlett Johansson on the internet (I’m a creep), who apparently takes on one of the leading roles (although I think you can possibly better see her as the sidekick of Thora Birch, who in my opinion is the actual star of this wonderful film). The trailer promised me a delicious dose of 90’s atmosphere all wrapped up into 111 minutes, so I just couldn’t pass this one up. The film is based on the popular comic and tells the story of two girls with a rather cynical take on life (HA, totally not identifying right there, I swear).
It’s not a movie for everyone, in fact it is rather strange. But, nevertheless, you should watch it. Trust me. Why?
1) If you get warm fuzzy feelings when you’re thinking about the ’90. No Spice Girls, but oh boy, they make up for it in fashion!
2) Steve Buscemi (need I say more?)
3) Amazing one-liners. One of my personal favorites: “Some people are OK, but mostly I just feel like poisoning everybody.”
Well, the title says it all. This whole blogging-thing takes some getting used to again! And, yes, I know that sounds like a lame excuse, but I actually hope to shower you guys with good news (at least for me) & then maybe you will all be amazed and totally forget that I forgot to share my private life 24/7 with you for the past couple of weeks. Ok, not that I usually do that… I just really want to share this news with you. Anyway, here we go.
YES! MOTHAF… oops, I’m sorry, I got a bit carried away. But you have to understand: this thing ruled my life for the last one and a half years. I got the idea for my thesis at the beginning of my third year at uni (also already found a supervisor back then) and ever since, it was in the back of my mind. I took a fourth year to complete my bachelors, because I really wanted to go on an exchange to Sweden (and hello, more time to gain even more knowledge, YES PLEASE), which was fine, but man, that thesis… it caused a lot of stress. It’s true what they say: just write that damn thing and be done with it! Of course, instead of writing it when I had the time, I finished the first draft during my exchange (fun, let me tell you! but not really). When I got home four weeks ago, it turned out that my supervisor had a big problem with one of my chapters, so I had to rewrite it. With a BIG deadline looming, saying “it was stressful” was a bit of an understatement to say the least. But I did it! And during the final talk with my supervisor two weeks ago I got a lot of compliments (‘wha… you think I’m intelli.., wha… are you talking about me?!’). So yes, big relieve there. In the end I can say it was all worth it! I finally feel “free”! It also means I’ve graduated and got my bachelors degree! (For the people who are interested: my bachelor thesis was about the head-prosecutor of the Tribunal for the Former Yugoslavia, with a focus on Carla del Ponte and how her term at the tribunal showed us a lot about the interaction between international justice and politics. I won’t bore you with the specifics.)
This whole blogging-thing is something, but can we please talk about this whole “future-thing”?! Am I the only one who’s having troubles with this one? After four years at uni I still don’t know for sure what I want to do. I’m slowly coming to terms with that fact that I probably won’t have an epiphany and decide I want to be a life-saving Florence Nightingale II, go all ‘Sister Act’ and devote my life to god, or dedicate my life to the exploration of some boring archive. That’s why I’ve decided to think ahead only one year at a time. Or maybe two. Works for me! After some soul-searching about next year, I came to the conclusion I didn’t want to leave university just yet, but that going for my masters felt a bit too soon (the fact that the choice of masters in my field is a bit limited was a big part of that). Instead, I wanted to try to get into criminology and… I GOT IN (ba-dum-pum-pum – I guess the big headline was a bit of a spoiler). It means I’ll probably study for one year at Leiden University (for the international people: yes, that’s near Amsterdam, like the rest of the Netherlands) and after that I have a few more choices concerning masters. Don’t get me wrong: I would love to get a whole bachelorsdegree in criminology, but the dutch government made that nearly impossible for me. This way I get to follow a lot of interesting courses and gain 60 ECTS in another field of science. I’m really excited!
After getting the good news about my thesis and getting into uni again, I can finally relax. The last two weeks I’ve been enjoying my free time and the good weather, and I’ve also been dancing a lot to this (I don’t like to brag, but I’m just SO HAPPY about being finished with my thesis and I believe these things require victory dances). (If you don’t do victory dances, you should introduce them into your life, trust me!).
(hip hip, regular updating can now, once again, commence!)
So, for those of you who have been following my blog for a while now, you’re probably wondering how it all went down with me living in Sweden for six months. Well, I LOVED IT. And I miss it, because Sweden is awsome. I have been back for almost three weeks now and it feels super weird. Mostly I’m really glad to be back (in my apartment, with my boyfriend, being able to do grocery shopping without having to contemplate EVERY purchase because of that damn swedish kronar – hey what can I say, I love a full refridgerator), but sometimes it seems like Sweden was just one big dream that never happened. And that is scary, because it makes me wonder if I really took it all in and really enjoyed it as much as I could, you know? But I know this is something that probably happens to everyone who comes back after a long vacation/ around the world trip/living abroad for six months and therefore I try not to worry about it. It will come back to me and I will feel like a sane person again. Everything just has to fall into place.
Until then, I love to listen to these two swedish hippie girls. Watching this clip makes me think of Sweden and it’s beautiful nature, especially the woods of Småland (if this clip turns out to be shot somewhere out of Sweden, you can laugh at me really hard and I’d probably join you). It also brings me back to all the restless first nights I had in my little room at the beginning of my exchange. It feels ages ago! Anyway, enough talking.
Oh, and yeah, although to me they will always be “the two hippie girls”, other people know them as First Aid Kit (probably comes in handy if you ever want to look up some of their other music).
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